Second Day In A Row...

that my devotional really spoke to me.....I shall listen!  ;-)

I woke up thinking about the desire of my heart, HIS Word says HE gives us the desires of our hearts....for me not so much, not now and my mind says not ever....not gonna happen.

My devotional reads that Eve focused on the one fruit she couldn't have rather than being thankful for the many good things freely available ~ that's me!  Focus on the one thing I don't have.

It had been pushed to the back of mind, that one desire, just riding it out but it was brought full force to the front last night listening to someone talk about what they are doing, doing what I want to be doing and can't.  ;-(

devotional goes on to read:

"When you focus on what you don't have or on situations that displease you, your mind also becomes darkened.  You take for granted life, salvation, sunshine, flowers and countless other gifts from ME.  You look for what is wrong and refuse to enjoy life until that is "fixed."

...well I thought I was enjoying life until I had to endure the conversation of last night...then it was like BOOM HEAD SHOT you don't have and won't have the desires of your heart.

devotional ends with:

"When you approach Me with thanksgiving, the Light of My Presence pours into you, transforming you through and through.  Walk in the Light with Me by practicing the discipline of thanksgiving."

It is a discipline of thanksgiving when you feel like I feel and I feel like I can't get a break in a few situations in my life.  BUT I am thanking HIM today, right now for speaking to me, thanking HIM for seeing the sunshine streaming through the window, thanking HIM for java in my cup!