Forgive Me......

Dr Minkin for I have sinned....I ate things I shouldn't have eaten, I did not exercise and I had too many big girl drinks during the holidays. He asked something about was I talking about alcohol? I hung my head in shame and covered my face and shook my head yes...guilty as charged. He was not harsh but did say something about just think you didn't exercise and you over indulged and you still lost 6.8 pounds ~ you could maybe have lost 10 pounds or more! OUCH and oh so true and that hurt worse then a few harsh words ~ I'm such a moron ~ I know what to do and how to do it but I decided to "cut up" during the holidays!! We discussed things and decided no fill for me. I feel really comfortable with what I have right now and I'm almost to my max so I'm with the doctor, why fix something that isn't broken? Leave a little room for tweaking down the road. I go back in 8 weeks.

Basically last visit I was 195 and today I was 188.2 minus 6.8 lbs since 11/16/09 total weight loss 38.6 according to the doctor's scale.

Of course we all know I go by my scale!! LOL ;-)

He didn't take my gizmo away.....onward and downward!

Second Fill ...

wt: 202.4

I've been holding steady on the weight for about 3 weeks now ~ hovering just above ONEderland ~ ugh!

Had my second "fill" yesterday. Here's the questions and answers:

Type of band? LAP-BAND AP System

How many CCs in? 8 1/2 now (was 8 CCs before yesterday)

How close can I have fills? in about 8 weeks maybe get another fill but if the band only holds 9 CCs how much more can one band take?

So my next appt is in Nov 16th.

Doctor asked if I was drinking with meals, if I was exercising and how often, if I'd had any problems with food.

I know for myself I need to focus on eating only when hungry, not grazing, not eating something just because it's there and cut back on the big girl drinks.

onward and downward!