Tomorrow Is The Big Day!!

6-18-09 to 6-18-10! I'll post more tomorrow! ;-)

Today I Learned....

First the temptation = a whole grocery store!!!

Second the lesson = I can overcome being hurt and upset without food. I had all kinds of thoughts running through my head....from chocolate to cookies to diet soda to chips but INSTEAD I decided I would only be hurting ME and I am on this journey for ME so why hurt ME?! I sat and read a book for over an hour before I vacated my car. Then I saw a Dollar General and thought maybe they would carry the non food item I wanted and they did so I bypassed the grocery store all together!!

Third the other lesson = call a friend, read a book, text somebody, just do something besides giving into emotional eating!

onward and downward.........

"Official" Thursday Weigh In Results

189.8 up .2 from last Thursday according to my records. I've been weighing every morning again and it seems to get my mind set in the right direction for the day (regardless of what the scale yells @ me). In my journal every morning I've been writing my word "Believe" and my personal challege that I have going on right now...."eat only when hungry" I've had a few slip ups but overall I ask myself are you REALLY hungry before I eat ~ stop, ask, listen to your body ~ that's what I need to do!! onward and downward

Forgive Me......

Dr Minkin for I have sinned....I ate things I shouldn't have eaten, I did not exercise and I had too many big girl drinks during the holidays. He asked something about was I talking about alcohol? I hung my head in shame and covered my face and shook my head yes...guilty as charged. He was not harsh but did say something about just think you didn't exercise and you over indulged and you still lost 6.8 pounds ~ you could maybe have lost 10 pounds or more! OUCH and oh so true and that hurt worse then a few harsh words ~ I'm such a moron ~ I know what to do and how to do it but I decided to "cut up" during the holidays!! We discussed things and decided no fill for me. I feel really comfortable with what I have right now and I'm almost to my max so I'm with the doctor, why fix something that isn't broken? Leave a little room for tweaking down the road. I go back in 8 weeks.

Basically last visit I was 195 and today I was 188.2 minus 6.8 lbs since 11/16/09 total weight loss 38.6 according to the doctor's scale.

Of course we all know I go by my scale!! LOL ;-)

He didn't take my gizmo away.....onward and downward!

Eye Opener

198.8 this morning but it's not Thursday yet!!

The eye opener was journaling every bite yesterday! Yes, peeps it is true, diet and exercise are still the key to weight loss success and if you don't write it down you won't know you ate it ~ trust me!! I have many years of experience here! I am eating SMALL meals but I am eating TOO MANY small meals ~ grazing is not my friend! So today the food journal is out and will be kept again today.

Gotta love it when you are slapped upside the head and a big S for stupid pops out on your forehead!!

Reviewing Some Scale Success...

197 today! ;-)

I felt the need to review some scale success to put a smile on my face this morning so here I go!

I started Weight Watchers on 12/6/05 @ 258.2 that's minus 61.2 lbs total to today.

I had lapband surgery on 6/18/09 @ 232.2 that's minus 35.2 lbs since surgery. That's about 8.8 lbs per month with my gizmo.

Just throwing that out there...slowly but surely onward and downward.

"The Stairs"

<----doing the happy dance!! I did "the stairs" two times tonight w/o stopping!! That's right folks 201 down, 201 up, 201 down, 201 up ~ no wonder my legs feel like noodles!! On the second trip up I said to my man candy "if I die, know I love you and I died doing something I wanted to do to reach my goal!" My heart kept beating the whole hour long hike from top to bottom so all is well!

My Mom's Birthday!! Post-Op Day 68

wt: 202.8

First ~ HaPpY BiRtHdAy MoM!! ;-) (she's my biggest fan on my blog LOL)

Second ~ I have been cutting up for about a week now and playing with the same pound up and down the scale. Time to knuckle down and get to ONEderland!! Haven't exercised in days (since last week w/the personal trainer), haven't journaled properly either, eating not completely under control, NOT good!! Must get focused again and press on towards the prize!

Today I started a new journal as the old one was filled up. Now to keep it going all day until bedtime......writing what you eat really opens your eyes! I need to eat only when hungry and no snacking "just because". For those of you that are still thinking that the lap band surgery is the easy way out ~ I'm here to remind you "it's NOT!" you still have to do the right thing in order to take weight off and keep it off ~ the lap band is just a tool to help you out.

I had an issue with a bite of potato last night that resulted in "sliming" but no where near as bad as the first episode! I spit up twice and was over it. Why don't I remember to chew chew chew?! Especially that first bite?!

Post-Op Day 30

I've been hanging right above 210 for a few days now. I'm thinking no scale movement because we haven't been walking daily since hubby had surgery on Tuesday. Need to get back on track with exercise! Today I cleaned my closet out again (remember I did that a few weeks before surgery when I decided to start my new self journey) ~ the 18Ws were very loose so some of them went in the Goodwill bags. I was surprised to be able to fit into some of the clothes in my closet ~ nice surprise!! I had put off trying them on because I didn't want to be disappointed. I've been disappointed too many times before.....